Monday, September 27, 2010

Exactly how I feel

Bucket List

I think I should make a bucket list. I heard Lou Holtz has a very famous list of 100 things I want to do in life. I haven't read it yet though but as I was googling it, I came across something other lists and 2 questions caught my eye.
1. Have you found joy in life?
2. Has your life brought joy to others?
That is so powerful, don't you think? If everybody lived life like that, the world would be a beautiful place. I'd like to think I have brought joy to others. I like to volunteer, I've helped organize charity events. I'm always kind and understanding. Maybe one day I should travel somewhere to help build houses. That will go on my bucket list but learn to build a house will be on that list too.

Advice from Somewhere

Advice from Somewhere

I highlighted the ones I particularly like. 

Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
When you say, "I love you," mean it.
When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
Believe in love at first sight.
Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
In disagreements, fight fairly. Please No name calling.
Don't judge people by their relatives.
Talk slowly but think quickly.
When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
Remember the three R's:       Respect for self;       Respect for others;       Responsibility for all your actions.
Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
Spend some time alone.

Don't forget the day that we met.

What our relationship needed

What our relationship needed:

Honest communication.

Easier said than done.

What I've Learned

What I've Learned

  • I've learned. . . that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
  • I've learned. . . that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
  • I've learned. . . that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
  • I've learned. . . that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.


I am not a fighter. I'd rather not argue, I don't like it. So it really takes someone really annoying to make me get angry.

I never fought with my ex-boyfriend. Not once. In over two years. We'd have disagreements, sure, but we talk it out like civilized people.

Things we have disagreed about:
- Which way the zoo exit was
- Donating to World Vision
- Various ethical cases I have to do for schoolwork
- Spending less money
- Spending too much time with a boy

We didn't even fight when we broke up. He just got sad. And we talked for a long time.

That's why we were perfect for each other. We both have that easy-going, laid back attitude. Things don't get our panties in a bunch. There's nothing worth getting angry over. Be adults.

And I do get into fights with other people. They do get me angry. Usually because they are so close-minded, ignorant, or just a jerk in general. If you're not any of those things, I wouldn't get angry. So yes, it is your fault.

Site I found: Things my girlfriend and I fight about

  • Just for reference; if Margret returns from having her hair cut and says, 'What do you think?' and you reply, 'I'd love you whatever your hair was like,' well, that's very much The Wrong Answer, OK?
So true!

Can you do this for me?

Geek Guys

This is kind of cute. Girl's Guide to Geek Guys

Douchebags are so overrated. Geeks are so underrated.

But it's hard to be with a geek. For me. I'm self conscious about sounding stupid. And being with someone who's so smart is hard. Or someone who's really into current events/politics. I'm just like, durrrrrr. Can't do it.

There are good points for them though. Yes, they're readily available, they're knowledgeable, they'll be devoted, they're good guys. What about the disadvantages though? They're socially awkward, different interests, home bodies, inexperienced.

I don't go so extreme. I don't want either end of the spectrum. It's hard to find.

Babyface - With Him

Hearing this song makes my heart break again. I never told anyone the real reason I broke up with my boyfriend. Only him and I know. Plus one other guy.. so you know.. I'll tell the story some other post.

He told me he wouldn't tell anyone what really happened because he didn't want to tarnish my name, or make people think differently of me. That's how much he loves me. He's amazing. I really miss him. I'm sorry I hurt him . But I think being single right now is doing me good. I have more time for me. But that also means sitting at home alone working on my stuff. But I am realizing things about myself. Blogging will help too.

God, I love this song. Makes me want to cry.


So last night, I was feeling lonely. Been single for a whole.. 7 weeks. So I got a guy to come over this morning. Just to cuddle we say. Why do I do this to myself. He's such a creep too. I gave myself a mantra, I'm not doing a very good job at reminding myself.
I deserve better and I won't settle for less. 
I really do. I know I do. I know I deserve the best guy ever out there. I just haven't found him and I have a problem with being alone. No, it's not really the fact that I'm alone. I just need to feel wanted all the time. I need companionship. Is it okay to settle for Mr. Rightnow? It's stupid. I hate lowering myself to the level of that douchebag. It was awkward too. He asked me why I was starring at him and told me to stop. Then he proceeded to put his hands over his face to block the view. So I rolled over and went to bed.

Blog Launch

I should be working on my marketing report right now. It's not going well. 2/5 of my team members are deadweights and it's due in two days. I'm sure I'll be able to throw something together by tonight though. Sometimes words just flow outta me... which is why I decided to get the blog.